The Boy's A Straight Up Hustler

My day seemed so empty without your "Good morning" messages.

Its funny how one little detail could be so big and important in the grand scheme of things.

One person can completely make or break your day. And thats a really scary thought when you get right down to it.

I haven't felt this vulnerable in a really long time. 

I still can't figure out how I let my guard down for you.

Maybe it was because I met you when I was at my worst, and you didn't walk away.

And you never walked away...

I Was So Alone

"You got so much love in you

You got so much love in you

I'm amazed that I'm talkin' to you

You look like the songs that I've heard my whole life coming true"

Swoon.

I'm Not Over It.

And I guess this is my breaking point.

I'm sorry I can't stay strong for you.

I'm trying.

Believe me, I'm trying.

Please don't leave. Just not yet.

Oh, Star

Of Course you would let me cry in your arms - although, when Im with you the only thing I can do is smile <3

Miracle!

Not anyone. Just you.

I realize that people do make mistakes, but this one just hurt more then most. You knew how much I was counting on you to make my day better but you didn't even have the decency to wait for me, or to call me saying that you couldn't make it. False hope is all Im ever filled with.

I'm sorry, I do realize Im taking this out on the wrong person, the only person who can make me feel better, its definitely not fair to you. 

Im just so angry with letting myself got walked all over by everyone. 

**You could have at least asked to talk to me privately, instead you shouted at me in front of EVERYONE. Dick move. 

I'm so tired of crying and waiting for you. I wouldn't wait around if I knew you were totally worth it. Just please, please keep your promise to me that you will stick by my side no matter WHAT. 

Its ridiculous how Im constantly checking my messages hoping and wishing that you have finally said something to me. 

**You are such an amazing BEAUTIFUL girl, I can't tell you how happy I am that I'm your friend. Remember, I have faith in you <3

Thank you for coming around again. I knew we couldn't be separated for long, even if everyone else had their doubts. I've always known that you were there for me, and its nice to have that feeling back again. I can't tell you how much I love you for forgiving me after what a horrible thing I did to you.

**Would you let me cry myself to sleep in your arms?

Maybe Tomorrow

Fly away with me?

I didn't think so...

No matter what I'll always have faith in you. Im keeping this promise. Maybe someday we will get there, maybe not. But for right now I have no problem waiting. You have no idea how much you are worth it. 

You promised that you would always be there for me and I believe you, which is a huge step for me. 

Thanks for sticking around.

P.S - Its kind of funny how everything I write is about you <3

Nineteen Stars

I wish I knew when it was the right time though.

I want to tell you so bad. I really do... But you don't know how afraid of this I truly am. I trust you with all my heart, but I think I need more then that right now.

I have the most amazing people in my life. They never walk away when Im feeling as blue as this. I don't think I ever take the time to thank you. I love you all so much.

You've really helped me to see that there is so much beauty to life. All the ugliness just washes away when you really take time to sit back and count all the blessings you have.

There are no words to describe how ridiculous I feel when I am with you. All the butterflies drive me crazy, but I know that they are worth it. 

You make sure Im always in check, and I really need that. You are so amazing I can't even describe it. I can't wait to see you again.

Please don't walk away.

Gaurdian Angel.

And somehow. I just know you are worth it.

This Is How We Do

Its funny how amazing this day actually was. You have no idea how much I truly love you. It reminded me like when we were kids, how we could run around so care free - except now we have cars and can go anywhere we want.
It was almost sad though, running around in a place that should have still been my home. So many memories overwhelmed me, and I wished that we were all back together again. I wish I was there. But I love it to much where I am right now. And thats something I thought I would never say.
I'm just starting to make the greatest friends ever. People who understand me and where I'm coming from... and the craziness that is me. It's funny how some people can totally make or break your day. My old best friend, and one of my new best friends totally made it.
I'm totally ready to go looking with hotties :)
Tomorrow, here I come <3

Conversations With Strangers (Little Secrets)

I wish it didn't..
But its my life, I have to learn how to deal with it.

Today while in the middle of breaking down a stranger kept on helping me. It was amazing. He kept on making sure I was okay, and wrote me the most beautiful quote ever. I've never been so moved before. It kind of reminds you that there are people out there looking out for you.
Thank you so much again :)
You truly are an amazing person.

Hometown Heroes; National Nobodies

What am I waiting for?

At the end of the day it all comes down to me. What I'm doing. Why should I care what others think of me? 

I never realized how much I thought about things inside the box, until I really opened my mind and listened to you talk. You look at things so differently from me.. except, thats always how I've longed to look at the world. 

I hope that you can continue to open my eyes to everything.

Here's to you and being such a great inspiration to me, and making me believe that dreams can go anywhere.

Six Feet Under The Stars (Gaskarth, where are you?)

Can I please be someone's Punk Rock Princess?

Hello, Good Friend

And all I have is all of me. And it's all that I can give. Our disappointed hearts will heal. Our hearts will spill Over you, over me, over this.

Shameless

I know it will be. 

It has to be.

I'm sorry I hurt you so much. That wasn't exactly how I wanted you to find out. But this is everything coming back to you from last year. Its the same pain you put me through.

Wasn't it me you didn't want?

Wasn't it me who was hanging on?

Now Im done but before Im gone I want you to know

This is how it feels

When you wait for a call that never comes

Are you waking up because you miss someone?

This is how it feels

When the trust you had was broken,

And your left to burn with your heart wide open

You wanted me, not to tell me why

why and how you had the heart to fuck up my whole life

Thats just so you

And now I've moved on by myself

And maybe I won't forgive

I'll just forget you lived

And I hope it hurts

Wasn't it me you tried to blame?

Wasn't it me you threw away?

You taught me how to hate you

When I was so in love

When I tried to save us, it was not enough

So what the hell is different?

Because now that I'm gone

You're crawling back to me

telling me that Im the one

Do you only want me because you can't have me?

Do you only want me because Im gone?

Dear ______, Count Me In

And this is when I realized I just couldn't keep it in any more.

**I love you no matter what. Even if you are throwing away your friends for her.

**I don't know if you realize how much I truly appreciate you. I was going through a hard time and you welcomed me into a place where I felt I belonged. Thank you truly.

**You messed up big. I don't know how to forgive you, even though I would give anything to have our friendship back.