Fuck This Shit.

{Clearly I can't get the point across.}

Do you want to talk about it?

No.

Do I want to talk to you?

No.

Tell me about your past.

No.

Do I want to be your friend?

No.

Do I want to help you?

No.

Can you do me a favor?

No.

Can I forgive you again?

No.

Can I trust you?

No.

"Can you hate her?"

No.

{I'm done being a pushover. Here is one giant no.}

The Strength To Go On.

Fuck anorexia.

you're still ugly

On the inside.

That's So You.

I want to feel you in my arms

You make my heart go off like car alarms

I think about you night and day

What can I say

I love you deep inside my heart

Where feelings cant be torn apart

I hope you feel the same for me

I just hope you see

The same as I do

The vision of loving you

Don't ever leave

Because,

that would be the last time I breathe

I want to stare into your sparkling eyes

That never tell any lies

Please be by my side

So I don't have to hide

Show Me Everything You've Got

{Isn't it wonderful?}

Everything's for you

My heart is open

And willing

So take it

I love you non-stop.

I've never felt so compelled,

to give every part of me away.

I'm your Hide-and -seek

So lets play this game.

And see if you can find this!

I want to know these pictures of us,

I don't want to say goodnight to records I love.

I was thinking about growing old, forgetting and forgot.

I don't want to forget this, and I don't want to be forgot

Just "never ever, ever, ever"

You look like the songs that I've heard my whole life coming true

Teenage Love Rock

Thats What She Said

{This is so true.}

I've never been good at forgiveness,

but I just forgave you.

it feels amazing to let go of such a strong hate.

Maybe we can become as close as we were again.

There is so much running around in my brain right now, I can't even form a sentence.

I am the dumbest person ever.

I shouldn't talk to you.

I can't stop thinking about you.

I love you.

Move To The Other Side Of The Block.

Someone To Save You

{This one's for you.}

That's the thing about letting old lovers go. You don't stop loving some of them. There are a couple you love no less than you ever did. You're not going to try and make it work again, but if they needed you, you'd drop everything.

{To the ones I love. And the reasons I won't.}

A shot to kill the pain, A pill to drain the shame, A purge to stop the gain, A cut to break the vein, A smoke to ease the crave, A drink to win the game; an addiction’s an addiction because it always hurts the same.

Me Vs. Everyone

{Why Do I put myself in these situations?}

Something I Can Never Have

{I wish I knew what to do}

she is rehabilitated

she's so glad that she can say

she is rehabilitated

she's feeling ok

A year goes by

And I can't talk about it

I don't deserve you

'Cause I'm not there for you

Please forgive me again

And I hush my urge to cry.

Don't Walk Away.

So.
It's official. I am the stupidest person to have ever walked this earth.
I don't know why I let last night become the way it did. I've lost trust with the people I love the most, I'm afraid that my reputation will be ruined, and I stabbed the one person I love the most in the back. And I just don't know who to talk to this about.
I always thought that I was above the typical high school scene, I guess not though. I got caught up in the moment and lost all the morals I believe in. Fuck.
F.K, J.L, B.W, M.J, thank you all so much for trying to help. With telling me stories of your first times and why I shouldn't feel bad, to letting me cry on your shoulder for a long time. And for calling my parents and walking me to a safe spot.
M.J, I really can't tell you how sorry I am though. I do realize that I ruined everything for you, and I hope that I can some how make it up to you. And I really hope because of my stupidity you don't lose your friendship with your close friends. I just wish I knew what to say and how to make it better.

If I could redo last night, would I?
You bet I would.

It wasn't worth him losing the trust in me.
But you are the best person in the world, for being mad at me but still holding back my hair and standing beside me while I was throwing up. And for helping me walk when I couldn't even stand up. I love you, and I never, never want to lose you. I hope that you can gain your trust back in me soon. You were the last person I ever wanted to hurt.

I Don't Break Hearts, I Just Dent Them.

{It's just the distance}

I do realize that I hurt you. This isn't what I wanted.

At the same time, you had to know.

Just how could it work?

{You've never been so used, as I'm using you, abusing you.

My little decoy.

Don't look so blue, you should've seen right through.

I'm using you, my little decoy}

I wonder what would've happened, if we stayed in touch before you left.

Would it have changed things?

You bet.

{And I'll be distant, the stars reminiscing.

Your heart's been wasted on me}

I have to say though.

Your poem made me want to cry.

{This reminds me}

When we took a picture,

of our hands,

in the shape of a heart.

{You're waking up

a part of me I've never known,

and I've never felt 

So invincible}

Things feel so perfect with you.

I know what it's like to:

Trust

Feel beautiful

Loved.

{So don't let anyone scare you.

you know that I'll protect you.

Always, now through the thick and thin.

Until the end}

Everything fell into place.

Who would've thought?

My best friend would mean so much more then that.

{So, let me say, that I love you.

You're all I've ever wanted.

All I've ever dreamed of to come.

And yes you did come}

I'd swim the ocean for you too.