Don't Walk Away.

So.
It's official. I am the stupidest person to have ever walked this earth.
I don't know why I let last night become the way it did. I've lost trust with the people I love the most, I'm afraid that my reputation will be ruined, and I stabbed the one person I love the most in the back. And I just don't know who to talk to this about.
I always thought that I was above the typical high school scene, I guess not though. I got caught up in the moment and lost all the morals I believe in. Fuck.
F.K, J.L, B.W, M.J, thank you all so much for trying to help. With telling me stories of your first times and why I shouldn't feel bad, to letting me cry on your shoulder for a long time. And for calling my parents and walking me to a safe spot.
M.J, I really can't tell you how sorry I am though. I do realize that I ruined everything for you, and I hope that I can some how make it up to you. And I really hope because of my stupidity you don't lose your friendship with your close friends. I just wish I knew what to say and how to make it better.

If I could redo last night, would I?
You bet I would.

It wasn't worth him losing the trust in me.
But you are the best person in the world, for being mad at me but still holding back my hair and standing beside me while I was throwing up. And for helping me walk when I couldn't even stand up. I love you, and I never, never want to lose you. I hope that you can gain your trust back in me soon. You were the last person I ever wanted to hurt.