I am not your puppet.Not anymore.
I go after what I want, when I want it. I don't care about other people's agenda's or motives, all that matters in the end is me, what I want. I think it's awful when others are trying to control your life, trying to stop you from what you want. I think it's called being a door mat, something that you tried very hard to beat out of my skull. I suppose we just traded personalities.
Rusk kept on telling me that I was good at playing mind games, I denied it. Little does he know of half the mind games I actually play. He said he couldn't believe he was a 27 year old falling for a 17 year old tricks. I wasn't even trying to play him.
Oh baby, we could wreck the world.
I always find I have the best conversations with strangers. He was someone I admired from afar, for a while and I finally had a chance to talk to him today. It was funny how much we had in common, it was like looking at me, only in boy form. I think I fell in love as soon as the word "ativan" came up. He gave me insight to myself, which again, only helps me more and more.
I snuck into a movie today, I feel pretty bad ass.
Why would I do that?
Because I am
Very Much Alive.
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