Where's That Chorus At?

Did you know this brings back

memories?

A long walk through a forest taught me many lessons. Some, I wish I never learned, but I know that there is a reason it all happened. I never knew about love, or beauty. I also never knew of pain and heartache. My first everything happened under these leaves. I haven't gone and visited the forest since the day I learned how much I could cry, I'm afraid it will bring back too many memories of things I've tried to forget. But I don't want to block them from my memory anymore. It's time to revisit the forest.

I am very aware that I'm being a terrible friend. The last week has been so hard with trying to accept myself as I am, and thinking I'm not good enough. I think these and I get scared, and angry and I don't know how to deal with the feelings except for pushing everyone I love away. I'm getting better though. I'm a hopeful kind of sad, a sad that just gets better over time. You are my best friend, and don't deserve that treatment. I'm glad you can understand though, even when I don't. I love you, and I'm going to try and be there for you as much as I can. No matter how hard it is. I promised you I would hold your hand the whole way through it. This is a promise I intend to keep.

Sometimes I feel like a monster for disliking someone who hurt me very much. But then I remember what he did to me. How he broke that promise to me, and I know my hate is justified. I felt a pinch of guilt when I saw you walk into the school this morning crying, but then I remembered again every tear that I had wasted on you, and I went on with my day. If you don't have respect for me during my bad times, see if I put an ounce of effort in helping you.

Unstoppable used to be such a foreign word to me. Hell, anything could stop me dead in my tracks and break me down. I think I handle things with a more positive attitude now. Words are just words and they won't break me. I'm extremely lucky that I have the best friends, and boyfriend, to show me how much I really am worth. I would still probably be hospitalized, if not worse by now, if I didn't have everyone in my life to show me the right way. So, thank you.

We don't give a fuck what they all say right?

I believe we are just the right amount of awkward and beautiful. Everything feels new with you, exciting, and incredibly perfect. I'm scared, but I think its a healthy scare. I hate being vulnerable, but I just can't help it when it comes to you. You found me when no one else was looking.

Lets catch the world on fire.