I'm A Chemical Kid.

Hunger is the best discipline.

Sometimes I fall back into my old habits. I'm not proud, but I'm in control.. Mostly. I still find it hard going to parties and watching people drink. I always need to try a sip of something new, and then next thing I know I have a drink in my hand. It's so addicting. Maybe I should forget about parties entirely, or maybe I should realize drinking within moderation is okay. I'm not depending on alcohol to make me okay, I'm just doing it for a good time.

I was proud of myself for not drinking tonight at the party. I felt anxious, like an anxiety attack was coming on, I wanted to drink, take the edge off, but I didn't. It left me tired and silently miserable, but it makes me feel like a better person. I suppose one day I will know the correct way to deal with these situations.