Friday, July 24, 2009

I Can Conquer The World With One Hand, As Long As You Are Holding The Other.

I think this takes a lot of confidence.


For in all the ways I have grown, I have still digressed. I feel happy knowing I hold all the power over my own self. To be happy, confident, bold, and alive. I'm always pushing myself in new ways. I'm encouraged to step out of my comfort zone. I need my opinion to be known. I will never stop learning, living or loving.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

If You Are A Mermaid, Then I Am The Sea.

I want to be bold,
not to mention euphoric.
It's just an automatic response. Instant smile. Unbeatable love. I'm not really scared anymore. Everything adds up in the end. I love you, and you love me. Trust is no issue when it comes to you. My life, my everything.
I'm not afraid to argue, to stand up for what's right. I will let you know when you're troubling me, and when I think you're wrong... Sometimes my angrier side gets the best of me though, I try not to. I think whats the injustice and what is the intent.
I wish to make decisions easier and know that I'm making the right one. I shouldn't be afraid of it anymore.

I wish for the past to stay in the past. Time to time I dwell on it a little too much. Things happened for a reason. I am the person I am today because of what happened.

I know who I love, and I know who I need with me. My support system, made up of one person alone. Someone so amazing, brilliant, loving. It's now I know what I want out of life, it's not as scary to me anymore. It makes me excited to move out, have independence and be completely consumed by the real world.

I love you.

Thank you.


Friday, July 17, 2009

It's Not Rocket Science... You Belong With Me.

Be infinite with me,
baby.

You know when you find that guy that knows just what to say to make you smile? He makes you feel safe and completely comfortable with being yourself. It' okay to sound stupid every once in a while because it makes him laugh. You stay up all night playing Mario cart and having thumb wars. You spend most of your time together goofing around and cuddling. And when you're not together, you talk on the phone til 3:30 in the morning. It takes 10 minutes just to say goodbye because he won't let you go and you don't wanna leave anyways. Yeah...that's what I call love.

I don't know what is is about you. Maybe it's the way nothing else matter when we're talking; or how you make me smile more than anyone else has. It could be the way that you say the exact right thing at exactly the right time. But whatever it is, I just want you to know that it means everything to me.


He was always her unreachable dream
And that’s the way it would always seem.
The playful star just playing his game
Until she wrote the letter addressed to his name.

“Hello my darling, my sunshine, my all.”
“This is addressed to you, the only one I call.”
“Although we’re not together and we live lives apart,”
“Never shall you forget you’re always in my heart.”

She had never believed in love at first sight,
Until she could only see his eyes as she looked into night.
And after each letter she would sign off with joy,
“P.S I Love You, my unforgettable boy".

She would wait by the road for the postman to come,
Hoping her love would show her some sun.
She would rest her head and try to sleep,
Wanting to say what she would have to keep.

She waited until that sun-kissed day
When the letter from her love said he was going to stay
She tore open the letter with ecstatic glee
Wishing and wanting her always to be.

“Hello my darling, my sunshine my all,”
“This is addressed to you, the only one I call.”
“I miss you, I love you, I want you forever”
“Promise me you’ll always let us be together.”

Her eyes lit up with love and with light
As she read his letter and sang into the night.
And after his letter he had signed off with swirls,
“P.S I Love You,” my wonderful girl.”







Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Ignorance Is Your New Best Friend


Something about you is so addictive.
Being silly is my favorite. I like to laugh, and giggle your giggle and make you smile. I don't like staying mad or fighting. I want to goof around and see the world with you. I will Go-Kart or sit in the wave pool with you. I will face my fears, and be brave for you. Anything for you.
Trust has always been hard for me. I have never been able to trust anyone fully. Even if they haven't done anything to break our trust. It's funny though how I am able to trust you with everything. I know you will protect my every secret.
Sleep medication is so overrated. Love works twice as good as anything perscribed. Curling up against you and laying my head on your chest makes me feel so safe. I'm never afraid of anything when Im with you. You tuck me in and I can instantly fall asleep, as long as I know you are near. I'm not a sound sleeper, so I love waking in the night and looking over knowing you are still beside me. That you will always be beside me. Kisses and I love you's are my favorite way to wake up. How much more perfect could everything get?
I love you.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Another Way To Say "I Love You."

He thinks I'm crazy for reading.
I think he's crazy for loving me.



Tese are the things I know like the back of my hand:

The backs of your hands. The backs of your knees. The way your blue eyes can be spring-sky-welcoming one moment and ocean-deep, ocean-cold the next. The gentle pattern of droplets weaving through each other. The distortion of light through water. The subtle differences between sticky tears and dry eyes. You.


These are the things I am sure of:

Puddles will evaporate. Rocks will erode. The snow will melt. You can't take the yellow out of green and end up with blue again. Rain is just water. Tears are just water. My situation will improve when the temperature starts to rise.


These are the things I know by heart:

The rain chattering outside my window, tapping out the wishes of oceans on the glass. Cups dirty with chapsticky kisses and smeared fingerprints, mapping the routes of my wandering hands. Cool drafts of air which reassure me that the world outside my room is still breathing. Sunlight daring to reach its fingers through clouds to stroke my cheeks with its warmth. The slow, slow rebirth of summer after an agonizingly bloody winter.


These are the things that I know to be absolutely true:

only you.
Hey, I love you.
So, so much.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

You Were Born To Quit.

How come?
Because in every single way, he is better then you will ever be. Why can't I let it go? Perhaps it's because you are someone I cared about, or maybe it's because I'm so against it, or wanting you to know how wrong you are. Because you are. Not only will I never trust you again, I take you as a liar, a fake, a hypocrite. Everything I will never find capable of loving. Why don't we stay in touch? Because you are so far down on a level I could never, ever stoop so low to reach. I know, I know, I'm a bitch. Sorry.