It Was July 9th.

The sun is always shining in the sky

somewhere...

So fitting for the life I lead, the problems that spill, the stories I weave. In the end fair is fair and two wrongs don't make a right. But Dear Lord, I wish sometimes it worked. Sometimes you can only look at one wall for so long, or in some situations, four walls. It's something that I crave, but won't ever speak of. A devil dressed up selling dreams of gold. The grass is always greener on the other side, just like the past can play tricks with our minds.

It's like a slap to a face, I mean reality. It's personalities that clash. Stories of a girl who doesn't know control. Being pushed to the edge causes the three year old in me to retaliate back. Anger takes the best of me and you're out of my life. I hate how some things happen. Time machines would be a nice thing to have. Take me back to screw my head back on.

I'm sorry for the way some things happen. I'm getting better. Truly. Perhaps things can start again. Happiness is in order.

I am very much alive.

I Should Have Let You In, But I Let You Down.

I don't like being censored.

I hate wondering. What if?

Fuck, shit, fuckity fuck fuck.

I hate knowing that I could mess up the best thing in the world. That I'll say something stupid. Act upon thoughts and blah blah blah.

I know. I am ridiculous. Worrying when I don't have to.

Maybe I need to take a little break. Get a way for a little while. No stress, no work, no problems.. Just a little break..

Because I Believe There's A Place For You And I In This Crazy World.

If it makes you happy, it can't be that bad.

I just want you to know. I do love you. Forever and always. And I do know you know that. Fights scare me, being seperated scares me, thinking of you not being in my life scares the shit out of me. I need you. And I'm holding you to your promises.

Forever and ever.

Why?

Because I love you.

I Would Still Die For You.

I was born to tell you "I love you"

Sometimes its hard... Because there are times where it's really hard to control myself around you and I want to kiss and touch every inch of your body.

And I guess what I'm trying to say is...

Well you'll have to figure that one out for yourself.