Some people are fucking monsters.
I can't believe how cruel some people can be. Cyber-bullying needs to be stopped. I can't believe how much this story has affected me. Such a beautiful soul, lost at such a young age. I wish I could make everyone's pain go away. I wish suicide didn't exist. I wish I could inject everyone with some form of hope.
I used to think my happiness and hope would only come from someone else, only very recently did I actually discover I can have hope and be happy alone. It was a scary transition, with some cuts and bruises along the way. But I made it through. I wish everyone knew that all you have to do is hold on.
Who knew it was within me.
I did something several months ago that I regret. And I lost one of my closest friends because of it. I finally had the courage to own up to what I did. I apologized. I know it's not much, but it's a step in the right direction. Of course I can never be certain if he'll actually ever forgive me or not. But I do miss white houses, and the way he could say one thing to completely change my perspective on something. It's strange to think that something has lasted almost four years after all we've put each other through. I am so glad I've been able to have such a beautiful and meaningful friendship with a truly amazing person. Even if we never spoke again, I am so thankful for the time that we did have together.
